I am not what you consider particularly religious. Sure, I believe but that's a topic for another day ...for another post. This particular Sunday my catechist and his wife held a healing prayer to prepare us for our up and coming confirmation and it was like nothing I'd ever experienced before. We sat in our chairs with perfect posture and closed our eyes as she began to speak. She spoke of our life until now, memories which we have held on to and people who have wronged us. It was an exercise to grow as a person, leave behind the negativity we have been faced with and learn to forgive and forget.
I can't lie and say I didn't want to laugh.
It was not that i didn't take it seriously, it was those nervous laughs you get when you don't want to make a fool of yourself and are afraid at the same time. So I sat there as she prayed and closed my eyes and really, truly tried to connect with myself. I didn't see it as something that had to be solely religious but rather a reflection of myself as a person.
It was all going well until they started the music.
Birds chirping. Water falls crashing against the rocks.
Even then, I swore to myself I wouldn't let it get to me, I almost laughed. I did.
And suddenly they started talking about things I felt and things I needed to find forgiveness for and it actually really truly helped me. I felt lighter the moment I walked out and since then I've been trying to let go of the things that have been tying be down because I realize that the only person I'm hurting in the process is myself.
So in a sense? NEW BEGINNINGS.
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