Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Summer Blog

Well. Naturally I have nothing school related to report and probably will not have anything academic to share for the next two months. I do, however, have interesting little stories to share that have happened to me since I got out of school. 

 this isn't really a story at all. but well. who cares? Graduation day ...okay. Back track.
Play-by-Play of all the events. Kinda.

June 16th, 2011. I woke up early with the pretense of arriving on time to my Orientation at CSUF. My mom had slept over the night before in order to attend Brandon's 5th grade promotion and as she slept soundly with me I found it so difficult to get out of bed. When there is someone else sleeping with you and they are still sleeping soundly while you stand there, shivering and half asleep forcing your butt to get moving and get ready for the day ahead...well, that is a horrible feeling.  Maria, Adam and I arrived at F. State at around 8:39 and after getting a 3 hour parking pass made way to find our designated meeting area. We couldn't find it. SO! We ended up asking a person who works there and after having them direct us to the proper location made our way across the campus to the Student Union or Student Center...whatever it's called and checked in. In my mind...well, quite honestly I don't know what the hell was going through my mind. I knew from before that this orientation thing would be an all day thing but that day for whatever reason I didn't seem to remember that. I was in skinny jeans rolled up above my ankle, a loose top, a short sleeve blazer/jacket and the most uncomfortable sandals made of pure rubber and plastic (cute ones tho). So I walk up to the table, check in and get my name tag and naturally I''m waiting for them to direct Maria and myself to an area where together we can pick my classes and get my student ID and leave to make it in time for Brandon's celebration. You can imagine my surprise when they tell me to say goodbye to my 'mom' and have her pick me up around 5 when we will wrap up. I felt a wave of intense heat wash over me when I realized that this thing I signed up for an all day thing. That this said "cute" outfit I was wearing was probably not appropriate for this event and that I had not eaten breakfast and suddenly food was all I could think about.  Are you f'in kidding me? I wanted to say, but of course I didn't. "um..can my family come with me?" "did they sign up for parent orientation?"

At that point I had to search deep into my memories and remember that letter I received about orietnation and how annoyed I was that you had to pay 75 dollars per parent for them to hear the same information you were going to hear anyway. "freakin' joke- hell no we aren't signing up!" I had said then.

"Um, no." I replied. "Well then you are going to walk through these two doors. down the stairs and walk into the meeting hall" I felt like it was a strange death sentence. I wasn't prepared. Who knows what they were going to make me do. I was alone no less and not entirely ready to start meeting new people. "Can I at least say goodbye to my family?" I asked. I made a solemn walk to Maria and told her the news, giving her a kiss goodbye and made my way into the meeting hall. As if the news of this being an all day thing wasn't enough you can imagine how much more I was surprised when I walked into the hall and realized I was late. I was easily the last one to arrive.  An orientation leader had to lead me through the mass of people sitting in their chairs, each looking terrified of what was to come and lead me to the table front and center. I sat down and looked around, a forced smile on my face as I greeted everyone and pretended I knew exactly what was going on. "I can't believe this is going to be 9 hours long!" the girl to my right said. "Oh, you didn't know? That sucks" Oh yeah, because I was so prepared myself. O_O

Rather than writing my entire journey through this said Orientation I'll cut it short. It was not nearly as horrible as I thought it out to be. I did, though, have a moment of panic when they sent us down to the basement computer lab to register for our classes and naturally I had no idea which to take. I had never been given so much freedom. I sat there, before the computer screen blinking rapidly trying to keep with with everything. Before me was a course catalog and I could take any class I wanted, any day I wanted, at ant time I wanted. I felt my heart beat faster as I tried to keep myself from hyperventilating.  To make matters worse I had no reception so I had no way of texting my sister to get their input.

It was a lot of freedom. It is going to take a hell of a while to get used to it.


After Anthony picked me up from orientation (he works a few minutes away) we arrived at Olga's to celebrate Brandon's Promotional Party. His friends gathered and their parents and we ate and watched slide show videos. Jovonna slept over that night and at some point we made our way upstairs into my room with the intention of skyping people but after having no takers we took to making videos via facebook for our close friends.

The following morning, June 17th, 2011 we woke up early and made our way to Graduation Practice at school. It's so crazy to fully comprehend that I've graduated. We showed up and as we made our way into the small gym I think everyone was shocked that we had made it to this point because it seemed as time just flew on by.  We practice for a while and then Jovonna, Becky and myself went to get some breakfast and after having them drop me off I quickly jumped into bed and took a nap to energize for Grad Night that night.

Graduation was as I expected it to be. The tears didn't come though. It was a nostalgic feeling seeing all of the people I had grown accustomed to seeing everyday at school being called up one by one to receive their diploma. I probably looked utterly retarded walking down the aisle to shake the principal's hand. My cap had flown off. The sun was in my face and I probably looked more pissed than happy.

I received tons of flowers! They were all so beautiful -sighs-

I received a good deal of cash, a BEAUTIFUL RING, a quill, a journal, a pair of earrings,  a book and a poster.

Grad Night brings us to June 18th, 2011. It was fun. I got an airbrush tattoo but on the bus ride home I was so so so utterly exhausted I just remember seeing the cars beside us on the freeway and then suddenly feel my head bang against the headrest, jolting me awake.


It's hard to believe High School is over.
It's officially Summer as of today.
Today was the first day it actually felt WARM enough to be summer.

Here's to hoping the packing goes by smoothly and the rest of the week goes well.
-D

Sunday, June 19, 2011

I graduated!

I don't even remember when was the last time I wrote on here. 
SO MUCH has happened within the past week since i've blogged 
and I am so behind on posting about it. 

This past Friday, June 17, 2011 I graduated High School!

SO EXCITING :]

I'm at a loss of what to write at the current moment in time.
Hopefully tomorrow I will be in a better writing mood.







Sunday, June 12, 2011

My whole life in one room.

"If your house was burning down and you could only take 3 things, what would you take?"

well, that's easy. My answer was always "clothes, pictures and books."

In my mind I would think, okay...so the house was burning but I would be one of those people that would be calm and productive. I'd grab a trash bag and pack as much clothes as I could, throw them out the window. Same with the books. Grab my box of pictures and run.

Now the answer isn't so simple. I don't have any developed pictures. They are all stored on my MacBook Pro. So, naturally, I'd take the computer and run.

Yes, the logic made sense but really, could you only pick 3 things that meant that much to you? You would leave everything else to burn to pure ash? Only 3? 

I've started cleaning out my closet today. Packing up all my clothes, sorting some for donation and making a pile of clothes that I've worn but I'm pretty sure don't belong to me. I took off all my posters, my decorative butterflies and my door coverings. All off and folded away and ready to be packed. 

As I sit here on my bed writing this I'm looking around this room, my home for the past 7 years and I can't bear the thought of leaving ANYTHING behind. This room is my life. Everything there is to know about me is in this room. Ever object that means something important to me is in this room. Don't know me? Come to my room and you'll find out all you need to know. Thinking back to the question, I would have no idea what 3 things I would pack.

I like to save things. I have all my binders since middle school. All my essays. Math progress reports from 7th grade. Director's Script for the Play HONK! I student directed that year as well. Sure, maybe I won't ever need them again but it brings me some form of consolation that I know I have them. The years have gone by far too fast and this is my way of knowing that despite everything I have something to hang on to to prove those years were actually real, they really happened.

As I get ready to graduate High School this coming Friday I've awestruck at how fast these years went by. Memories of Middle School cloud my head, early morning announcements, planning dances, talent shows, awards nights...was that really 6 years ago? It seems like those things just happened and now I'm realized it's been 5 years since I student directed that play, 6 years since I carried around that binder.

I'm turning 18 this year, in a little less than a month and that thought alone is pretty crazy to me. If feels as if years went by in weeks and suddenly I'm struggling to catch up...but in a good way. I'm ready for the new chapter in my life, I just didn't really pay attention to how soon it would come.


For the past 7 years this room has been my everything. My entire life is in here. There is not one thing I would pick over the other. Everything has value to be and holds a memory.  

Busy sorting, packing and throwing away... 
-D

Random Post

1. What am I doing right now?

2. My Age

3. First Name
4. Middle Name


5. Last Name
6. Nickname

7. Favorite Food


8.  Bad Habit

9. Pet's Name


10. Mom's Name



11. ....I'm bored. I can't do all 20 hahahaha
-D

Friday, June 10, 2011

These times are changing






4 years later





"Friendship is like peeing on yourself: everyone can see it, but only you get the warm feeling that it brings. "

Thursday, June 9, 2011

High School is over

I don't feel sad... yet.
Freshman Year- First Football Game

I mean, sure I have that nagging feeling in my stomach and my cheeks have this tingle that lets me know that the moment I listen to a sad song and see all my friends in our graduation gowns I'll burst into tears but until then...I'm good.

I'm happy.

I know so many say that High School was the best years of their lives.
They they did so much and had so much fun and they felt they lived it up then.

I don't feel that way.

These past couple years were the best of my life in a way, sure  but not directly because of school. I grew up these past years, I matured, I learned, I made mistakes and I learned from them. I met people and lost people and every relationship lost and gained taught me something.

Maybe some things didn't work out how I would have liked them to and maybe some worked out better than I could ever imagine.

I can't deny that during these past 4 years I was unbelievably happy and sometimes unbelievably sad.
Things happen and people change but in this case, I feel we've all changed for the better.

It's so scary to look at pictures of my friends, friends I've known since before we all met that awkward hell we call puberty and see how much we've grown. How much older we look.

What will we make of ourselves? Will we call each other when we can and catch up on our lives over coffee? Will we call each other everyday to fill each other in on our lives? Or will we be happy memories somewhere lost in the mix of the past?

I, for one, don't know the answer to that.
It's the beginning of the end in some way.
But it's also the beginning of something so much greater.
Life. Real life.
Senior Prom
Sure it will be hard and we will have stresses and worries but I'm confident I am ready to take it on.

Day 15: A band/musical artist whose music impacted your life.


Bon Jovi & Dido

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Day 14: Someone who has made your life worth living.


All that I am or ever hope to be, I owe to my angel Mother.  ~Abraham Lincoln

Prom- Redondo Royale 2011























Disneyland Senior Excursion

Before Disneyland - 6:45 pm



Before Disneyland - 6:45pm

Before Disneyland - 6:45 pm

On the bus headed to Disney! - 8pm

Waiting for the ropes to open - 11pm

in front of Sleeping Beauty's Castle - 4am 
Back on the bus - 5am

After Disneyland - 7 am

After Disneyland - 7am

After Disneyland - 7am
I bought a Baby Dumbo & on the tag it said:
"Take me home with you to live happily ever after"
<3